Do you ever feel that you try so hard to climb out of the darkness that surrounds us, to find yourself falling back in from time to time.... Tonight was such a night, no matter where I went, who I hung out with, what alternate realities I went into, or how much I drank, I could not stop myself from falling. I'm just sitting here wondering why when I find happiness, I have to go and screw it up by being paranoid. Off they go to have a good nite, and the only thing I can think of is what is she up too. I keep thinking she went to see him just to say hi, but you never can tell what with f*cked up mind like mine. Then you see them, and talk, and everything is ok again. All your worries are put at ease until the shadows of doubt rise up once more to cloud the clarity of your brain.

One more thing, hello to all out there, hope to post images soon, until then keep a light on and stay away from the shadows.